June 21st, 2016 – June 21st, 2018
My life feels so far from where I started this journey, two years ago.
Then, I was single, sick, and broke. I didn’t know how to fix things. I was exhausted from trying one thing after another, and finding myself defeated by failure.
And so I spent a year taking things out — challenging one habit, and then another.
Now, a year after that year ended, I’m working on a book — The Me, Without: A Year Exploring Habit, Healing, and Happiness — about that journey. It comes out in January. After years of singledom, I’m very happily coupled. I have work that’s helping me chip away at debt. I’m still sick, but at least advancing toward the day when a doctor might help me root out the source of my illness — it’s a goal other sites are set towards. And while my time is increasingly taken up with good work and people, I’ve also managed to keep curiosity at the forefront, too; writing The Me, Without has required me to learn a ton, quickly. And on the side, I’ve become quite the quirky bird watcher and tree identifier, too, amongst a few other new hobbies.
But as these new adventures have unfolded, I’ve missed the project of what I first called My Year of Abstinence; the sometimes frustrating, exhausting, inconvenient little self-self-help regimen that forced me to take time for self-exploration, every single day. Detailing lessons learned on this messy little blog and marking them in notes and journals further set me within a structure of constant self-reflection, too.
I miss that.
So, in a spur-of-the-moment decision tonight, exhausted from a long day of writing for clients and launching my new website, I’m going back for more.
June 21st, 2018 – June 21st, 2019
I don’t know what I will do yet, really.
It won’t be as dramatic a journey as My Year of Abstinence or The Me With.
But it will be a year of additions and withs. Tiny little things done daily that will keep me focused on… well… me. Or, being alive. Or, being aware that I’m alive.
Because I’m not done growing just yet.
I’ve got a lot more of exploring the me, within to do.
Here I go.