I’ve decided to continue the no social fast! I went onto Facebook and Twitter on the last night, and it just wasn’t at all fulfilling. Yes, the engagement of my posts on my work page dropped a bit, and I lost some Twitter followers (I gained some, too), but I didn’t really care. I think if I wanted I could just go back on and be less into it naturally. And over the weekend, when Ben and I were catching up on the phone, I told him I wasn’t sure there was more for me to learn from continuing on anyway. But…
But then I found myself more drawn to looking and wanting to more and, when I finally went on, felt like the 20 minutes I spent on Facebook was more of a pointless distraction than anything anyway. So I’m gonna continue for a total of 90 days, through to September 20th, when I’ll be returning home from the Azores anyway.
When I started this whole thing. I said, “So what is the purpose? What is my goal? I don’t know. I guess I’ll have to wait and share that on the 41st day.”
Looking back, I guess my goal was to just not take the easy way of escapism. To not look for a connection with a man through a dating app. To not look for comfort and love and friendship by double-clicking on a photo or “liking” a status update.
And it’s worked! I’ve talked to friends on the phone. I’ve talked to men in person (no dates, but I wasn’t really focusing on that, and the absence has felt good). I’ve faced my sadness and loneliness when it’s been unavoidable, and I’ve felt more happy, connected, and complete in life in general. I didn’t expect this profound a difference, and I’m so thankful for it.
What will the next fifty days show me?
I can’t wait to find out.